Vent like a motherfxcker...

Okay, this is about to get whiny.  And pathetic.  And sad.  And dumb.  And I hate everything.  And everyone.  Except that everyone is awesome and I mostly just hate myself.

You know that feeling where you just want to scream?  And cry?  And punch all the happy people in the face one by one.  Line em up.  Line those smiling faces up because I'm feeling slap happy.

I know this feeling.  I know this time of year.  I know that this is the way that I get.  Some idiot decided that 5pm was a great time for nightfall and this idiot decided that taking four literature courses at the same time was totally manageable and would be great fun.  "Sonja, the Bible is so interesting and cool and you really need to know this information!"  "FXCK YOU, SONJA.  'Bible as Literature,' my foot!  This piece of 'literature' is total crap and I want a refund."  I just wish that with this much experience, I would be better at coping with the stress that comes with this time of year.

I know that breaking up with the most significant boy of my life, moving, dealing with normal life things that aren't that big of a deal but let me tell you grocery shopping is THE HARDEST FXCKING THING TO DO and WHY will my feet not warm themselves up when I'm sitting alone in bed--I know that these things are not the easiest to deal with in the middle of the semester.  But life happens in the middle of every semester.

It helps to write out my thoughts.  It helps to talk to three different girlfriends and my mom in one day.  It helps to know that this time of year tends to creep up on everyone and if it doesn't, get in that row of happy people so I can slap you but really.

I'm glad you're happy.  And I'm actually a little more happy myself, because I'm starting to think that it's okay to feel not okay, especially during this time of year.  And hey, ya know, the Bible is really not so bad.  And grocery shopping is actually pretty fun.  And my new roommate cleared an entire shelf so I could line up all my boxes of tea and tea cups and holy shit will you look at those yellow trees outside my window and I just can't wait to yoga with my favorite teacher tomorrow and wow, I love my family so much and life!  Life is just so good it's not even funny.  

Things I like to do lately...

Things I like to do lately:

-Thrift for books on S. Broadway.  Specifically Fahrenheit Books.  They have the best books for the best price and it smells so perfect in there.  I've really been into the DRAMA section lately.  

-Thrift for clothes and shoes at Goodwill on S. Broadway.  I've been hitting the jackpot lately.  

-Watch shitty television.  America's Next Top Model, Project Runway, So You Think You Can Dance, Glee, New Girl.  I'm really happy I can stream all of these shows for free after a long day at school and work.

-Yoga at the Botanic Gardens. 

-School.  I'm taking a class called Nobel Authors with about seven other people and it's just so perfect.  We meet in the back of a musty Victorian which houses the Department of English and before every class we brew tea and chat about our lives.  And the books.  I don't care if I ever get a job; I will be proud to have an English Literature degree when all is said and done.

-Cuddle with my dogs and play tricks on them.  (Wrap Peaches in bubble wrap, clothe Alamo in a button-up shirt like a big boy, etc)  I also love our daily training sessions.  "Gimme paw" is my absolute favorite command because OMGTHEIRCUTELITTLEFACES they don't know what shaking hands is but heck, they'll do it to make me happy.

-My job has been killer lately!  Killer in a good way.  Like, "yeah! radical! killer, dude!"  Soooo, I'd been in a bit of a rut in my one-on-one tutoring sessions.  I'd found a good approach; students were digging it.  Everything was fairly peachy.  BUT WHAT THE HELL, MAN.  How boring.  Lately, I've been critiquing my methods and have decided I'm just not good enough.  I need to be better.  These darn Freshmen and Sophomore's and ESLers  and grad students deserve more from me.  I guess the Juniors and Seniors do, too.  So, yeah, I'm not in a rut anymore because I'm moving forward!

-I would like to blog more.  I make random lists all the time to keep me sane but I almost never write anymore.  I would reaaaaallllyyy like to blog about my brother's wedding.  It was the most stunning event of all time and my experience as the officiate was totally mind-boggling and something I'd like to share.  Until then, folks, here's a picture of happy doggies on a climbing adventure.

Swim...

Oh, J. Crew, why do I always love the most expensive item at your store??  WHY!? 

Red Rocks...

I'll be headed to Red Rocks Amphitheater for the first time to see The National and Local Native.

HEHEHEHEHE YAY!

New baby...

Look who I've been hangin round with!!!!  This little love is Peaches.  She's full of energy and loves to play but is also quite the cuddler.  We went to the dog park today and she got her first boo-boo.  She bled and everything.  Ugh, I think I was more scared than she was.

I'll let you know when she gets better, and I'll keep sharing all the cute on this blog.

Three month update...

I wrote down this list of goals for the new year.  Some of them are pretty specific, while others are kinda dumb or too broad.  I figured I write a little update about how things are coming along.

Here's what I wrote:
1.  Whiten my teeth by the end of February.  Haven't done this yet.  I figure I'll wait until a couple weeks before Mexico.
2.  Chop off all of my hair by the end of the year.  Again, I'm waiting until after Mexico to make this change.
3.  Find ways to better cope with stress.  I've been getting better at this.  Exercising, eating better, journaling, making lists of positive aspects of my day and seeing a school counselor have helped relieve a lot of unnecessary anxiety.
4.  Get a gym membership by February.  I don't have a membership but I do have an awesome fitness plan including two nights of climbing and two nights of yoga per week.  It's been more than fabulous.
5.  Stay off Facebook for the year.  I kind of sucked at this during the first part of the year.  I even made a new Facebook with the goal of only being "Friends" with people I see on a regular basis.  Facebook just doesn't allow for real life, however, and I've been doing better ever since.  I still check Jeremiah's newsfeed every once and again, though.
6.  Fix my shoulder with physical therapy.  OH YEAH!  BOOM SHAKALAKA!  I've been seeing the most amazing physical therapist for three-ish months and my shoulder is almost completely back to normal.
7.  Clean out my car by the end of January.  Check.
8.  Take the rest of my clothes mountain to Goodwill.  Check.
9.  Cherish the relationships I hold most dear.  This is where the goals start to get a little vague.  I think I'm doing okay with this one, but really, who knows.
10.  Stop putting so much pressure on myself.  Again, I think I'm doing okay but this is a pretty vague goal.
11.  Drink more water and cut out all soda.  I'm proud of this one.  I still love me some soda but I don't ever have it in my house.  I've been drinking La Croix as a replacement when I get desperate for some bubbles.
12.  Do one meaningful or productive activity each day and take the time to reflect on this activity.  I generally journal about my top three best moments of the day.  So yeah, this is going okay.
13.  Start volunteering.  Just started today.
14.  Continue journaling.  I haven't been journaling much this semester because I've been composing a day book for one of my writing classes.  My usual journaling has been replaced by my day booking.
15.  Get a better sleep schedule.  Since I started tutoring, my sleep schedule has been SO MUCH BETTER!!!  This will always be a work in progress for me.

YAY GOALS CYA LATER BYE

Lately...

Things that have been happening lately:
1.  I got another job!!  I'm so thankful for the opportunity and for the people at my primary job hooking it up.
2.  I committed to spending a week in Mexico with some of my best pals.
3.  I started volunteering at Metro Denver Promotion of Letters and had my first shift today.
4.  I got a puppy and named her Peaches.
5.  I'll soon be moving into a bigger room of our house.
6.  MY SHOULDER IS FIXED!!!!!!!!!!!!  I've been climbing and yoga-ing up a storm!  STOKED!

Life has been pretty good all around.